Pseudogaffe is the personal website and weblog of tolbiac, an index or point-of-reference to myself and my work. My blog is my main project, which I try to add to at least once a month. A full archive is here.
I’m a 19 year-old bisexual/queer male (he/him pronouns) residing in the United States with my partner. I’m a writer, programmer, information technology enthusiast, anarchist (without adjectives, synthesist), anti-fascist and PC gamer. I’m also neurodivergent/autistic, anxious, depressed, possibly bi-polar, an Agnostic-Atheist (with some respect for taoism, zen and wicca), a Metamodernist Absurdist or Optimistic Nihilist, a punk and a furry.
More about myself (not really structured)
My work is at my own leisure. Its basically a hobby, but I like to think it has some actual value to others. I normally write about society, politics, current events, issues affecting my interests, anarchist theory, practice and analysis, and personal ruminations on life and dealing with it.
I also write short stories when I’m not focusing on a specific real-world issue. They normally deal with characters struggling to effectively communicate or self-actualize around others while gaining perspective along a stressful journey. Thats kind of just the types of stories I like to write. If you had to attach a genre to it, it would probably be existential drama or something dumb like that.
I wrote a few pieces for Its Going Down and Subversion News. I’m open to collaborating: just get in touch with me if you’re interested. If I’m not writing an article on something, I’m probably ranting about it on twitter or tumblr.
As a programmer, I used to be more invested in projects but my work there has been reduced to accommodate for my writing. When I do write source code, its normally a basic script that performs a very specific purpose instead of a large, complex program. I code in Python, Bash and a little C and C++. I host my projects on GitLab.
I’m a GNU/Linux user on my laptop. My distro of choice so far is Manjaro Linux running GNOME. Debian-based distributions are my fall back when things break. My dekstop runs Windows 7 for games, media and file sync. You can probably find me easily on steam, or contact me if not.
My interest in information technology kind of prefaces my own fusion of politics and technology. I advocated in favor of pirate politics while working on a few unsuccessful file sharing programs out of fear that BitTorrent would be outlawed or the pirate bay would be permanently shut down. I attempted working with servers and databases to widen my range of projects, but it never really took off. I have some standard knowledge in those areas and I still oppose copyright while advocating for free culture, open content, free/libre software and anarchism.
As an anarchist, I avoid assigning myself specific adjectives (capitalism and nationalism are not anarchist adjectives, they’re the opposite of anarchism) although I have previously identified as an anarcho-syndicalist, anarchist communist and social anarchist. I’m an advocate of pluralism, flexibility and self-theory as means of fulfilling mutual aid and autonomy. Organizationally, I prefer synthesis organizations made up of insurrectionist affinity groups, but I think large [platformist] federations are good if they remain horizontal and anti-authoritarian. I ultimately trust getting face-to-face with situations over pre-determined models for winning autonomy. A few sections of theory that I’m cautiously okay with are post-left anarchy and anti-civilization or post-civilization green anarchism, but certainly not primitivism. I like to think we’re all working toward the same world of vast and diverse relationships at the end of debates.
I’m involved with local organizing, outreach and workshops in my city to some extent. If you know me in person, you know the specifics.
As for other philosophical viewpoints, I’m an absurdist, situationist and probably an optimistic nihilist. Postmodernism and metamodernism are interesting. Intersectional feminism and queer liberationism are fantastic. Egoism seems nice, but I don’t think I’d totally consider myself an egoist. I think a lot of Stirner’s ideas can be more easily lived instead of reading the literature.
I mingle with a few different subcultures. I am indeed a furry, and your chuckling doesn’t bother me; I’m probably laughing with you. I don’t really do anything significant in those spaces. I consider myself a punk, my “style” is kind of a mix of folk punk and post-punk. I usually wear 1460 dr. martens with yellow or pink laces and one of my punk jackets. I collect patches and pins whenever I can and mix and match.
I need caffeine to do anything, and coffee is my primary route of administration. I usually take it black because I’m a snob about beans and dark roasts. Not a big fan of tea but its okay, I have to really be in the mood for it.
My music taste is scattered across genres, artists and levels of niches and whatever “mainstream” is anymore.
- hardcore punk — Bad religion, Iggy Pop, Dead Kennedys, Rancid, ZSK, Crass
- folk punk — AJJ, The Taxpayers, Days N’ Daze, The Orphans, Wingnut Dishwashers Union
- post-punk — Joy Division, The Smiths, Sonic Youth
- black metal — Panopticon
- death metal — Corpus Rottus, Slayer
- doom metal — The Sword
- progressive metal — Tool
- soft rock — The Fray, George Michael, U2
- 90s alternative — REM, Radiohead, Beck, Belly, Happy Mondays
- indie folk — Bon Iver
- folk rock — Hozier
- hip-hop — Wu-Tang Clan, Lil Uzi Vert, Del the Funky Homosapien
- alternative hip-hop — Gorillaz, Teflon Saga
- jazz hop — Brous One, Philanthrope, Nymano
- ambient — Prefuse 73, Tycho, Blackmill, Nobel Oak
- trap — San Holo
- progressive house — Helvetic Nerds, Noel Sanger, Glenn Morrison, Deadmau5, Uppermost
- hardstyle — Headhunterz, Wasted Penguinz, Showtek (before they became terrible), Dark Oscillators, Noisecontrollers, Scope DJ, Frontliner, Zany
- hardcore (electro) — Rotterdam Terror Corps, Drokz, Androgyn Network
- digital hardcore — Atari Teenage Riot
- drum n bass — LTJ Bukem, Bad Company UK, Pendulum, Netsky
- neurofunk — The Upbeats
- drumstep — Muzzy
- breakcore — Detest
- crossbreed — The Outside Agency, Limewax
This seems to be all of what’s worth saying about myself. Contact me if you have any questions.